[Shakily:] I was trying to convince him to eat by saying that - so long as he himself did not eat, nor would I. He then proceeded to question my commitment, asking whether I would do the same if he shot himself; I said that I would, thinking it would keep him from... [He hesitates and tries to gain better control over himself.] That was how it - it came to that. If I had not...tried to help, he'd not have been shot.